Hi All, I have let things get rather dusty around here haven’t I? Well I plumb forgot that this thing was here just begging to be updated. I am sure y’all have been waiting with bated breath for me to tell you what I had for breakfast.
It was an apple fritter from Starbucks if you must know, and also a hugemongous vanilla latte. I was late for work so I figured it would not hurt much to wait in the long line at the Bucks for coffee while I was at it.
The kids are great, Mogo is quickly approaching 8 years old and the 3rd grade. Charlie will turn 2 in August. Little light bulbs are going off all the time! The Old Man is good too. He has been discovering his spiritual path and it is truly awesome to watch. We have a lot of Buddha stuff happening at our place. Lots of Zen. Most of it is not coming from me though. I am trying and the Old Man is fairly patient.
I am here.
I am alive, and doing all the deals (even when they suck).
I am trudging the road to happy destiny. Trudging indeed.
The new Meds are working., Doc says I am in “Complete Remission” from depression. Since I posted last, I have quit smoking, come up with a budget that works for us and paid off all our debt. I have increased my credit score from “OMG that is really bad” to Meh, could be worse.” I am proud of myself. I am also keenly aware that all of this is directly correlated with taking my meds regularly. I am almost done being pissed off that I have to take them forever. Almost. I sometimes find myself forgetting a dose or two in a row and then I panic.
You know what still happens when you are no longer depressed? Not much different. More like a cloud lifts or someone turns on a light. It is not drastic though it felt drastic in the beginning. I think that was a honeymoon period or something. You know what though? You still get sad, you still wish things were different. The difference is that I am motivated to make it different rather than just wishing.
Next stop is to take a class about home buying. Cause, how in the hell does one get it together enough to buy a freaking house??? This is where I really miss Lane (my Step-Dad). He would sit down with me and help me figure it all out. Of course he would probably go in to greater detail about the fall of the housing market than I would care for and it might turn ugly but sheesh that guy walked me through most things financial.It is really weird to think of buying a house and not having his input.
Anyway, I am coveting the neighbors homes. It really is an illness. Walking through Home Depot, IKEA, and Costco thinking of all the cool stuff I want to decorate our home with. I am debating making a binder and filling it with all my house dreams. I can’t decide if that would be positive or if that would just piss me off… could change day-to-day.
Glad your back?!?!
Congrats on paying off the debt – not many can say that!
2 already? Pics???
I think I am back!
Working on it, sort of a resolution of sorts. Yep 2 already she has hair down to her butt! She is wonderful! Of course she is suffering from 2nd child syndrome which means not very many pics. I am working on it! 
Thanks for checking in!
You don’t necessarily need a class–just get a good book. I bought a condo and a house from reading a book.
One big tip I remember is to find a neighborhood you like and then send a letter to everyone in that neighborhood letting them know you’re looking in that area–if someone is on the fence about selling, that might put them over.
It sounds like you are doing a lot of great stuff with your life–congratulations!
I wouldn’t have thought to send letters to those in the neighborhood. That is a really interesting approach. Thanks!